I have no idea how to move on from my last post. I’m not sure I’m ready to move on just yet. So this will be a “checking in” post and I will skip Five for Friday or Fraturday because it doesn’t feel right yet.
I can’t thank you enough for all of the emails, messages, and comments about Jon. Thank you for praying for his family, his friends, our school, and me.
I last saw Jon on Thursday at our Open House. He came by to visit me and when I asked him how he was, he gave me a thumbs up. After going through my room and my teammie’s room, he looked tired so I asked him if he was ready to go. He shook his head no. When I asked him if he was having fun, he nodded yes.
I told him I’d see him on Tuesday like we’d planned. We’ll finish Junie B., okay? And I’m bringing some Pete the Cat books like you asked. I’ve already pulled them.
See you Tuesday, I said.
My heart is broken.
This has been a difficult week. I needed your prayers and I have felt them. I am amazed at God’s timing, although I know I shouldn’t be. We are on spring break which means all of Jon’s friends were home with their families and not at school when they heard the news. That was a huge blessing.
While I might have needed school to stay busy, it has been nice to just be quiet, to pray, to wander aimlessly through my day. To answer emails, stay in touch with Jon’s family, and keep in contact with my school friends. I haven’t had a lot of energy so I’ve just stayed close to home.
I’ve talked to my mom and twin every day . . . the two of them and Steve have been so supportive and helpful.
I am just so sad. But mostly, I am concerned for Jon’s parents, sisters, and family – I pray almost continuously that God comforts them and gives them strength.
Thank you for all that you’ve done — for donating to Jon’s fundraiser, for writing birthday cards, for being on this journey with me. I cannot thank you enough.
As we head into Easter weekend, I am comforted because I know Jesus lives. And this helps me get through the day. Knowing that Jon Jon is in Heaven – running, playing baseball, and experiencing pure joy in a perfect body.
Brittani Black says
Praying for you! He was so blessed to have you as his teacher!
Jenny Warner says
This is heartbreaking. You are an amazing teacher and I know you made a positive impact in the life of Jon and his family. The loss will be forever hard but I am praying for you and his family. Sending love from Wyoming.
Prayers for comfort for all those who are suffering from this loss. He was indeed blessed to have you and so many others supporting him and rooting for him.
You have been in my constant thoughts this week. God's timing is good in so many ways…Jon Jon touched so many people's lives in a positive way. He and his family sure were blessed to have you as part of their family. XOXO my friend
Lauren Shirk says
He was so blessed to have you as his teacher Kristin! While we feel sorrow Jon feels a joy we cannot fathom. <3 Praying for you & his family!
Stacy Ess says
I am so very sorry for your loss. Jon's family, teachers, and classmates are in my prayers.
I can't imagine how you are feeling. When I saw the post by his uncle that he had passed my thoughts and prayers went immediately to you and his family. I am so sorry. I can identify with the timing of God's plan. My friend and teacher also passed on the day we closed for spring break. That gave us time to regroup and gain control of our feelings. Another sweet teacher died this past June of a brain aneurism at age 40. I felt as if it would have been unbearable on her students to lose her during the school year. Take time to grieve. And I will continue to pray for you! I like to look at his face with joy he experience with you last year!
Amber O. says
Thanks for sharing this Kristin. I pray that you and Jon's family continue to feel the peace of that thought of him in Heaven in his perfect body, running, playing and hugging our Lord! There will probably be days when that thought isn't enough, and you'll long to hug him, too. For now, enjoy this Easter weekend with your friends and family, and rejoice that Jesus is the Lord who brings new life:)
I'm so sorry. He was blessed to have you as a teacher and cheerleader. His family will continue to be blessed by your support. I hope you find comfort and peace. May you look for and receive little Godwinks to let you know that Jon is happy and smiling down on you until you meet again.
Lori Huhne says
Sorry for your loss. I'm sure Jon and his family appreciated the extra time you spent with him!
Bridget S says
I'm so sorry for your loss. Jon was so lucky to have you as a teacher! I pray that you, his friends, and family are comforted in this terribly difficult time.
Thinking of you. xo
I am sorry to hear about Jon. My thought and prayers are with his family and you. I know how difficult this time is. My Dad unexpectedly passed away one month ago and we lost a teacher unexpectedly at our school the day before. I was so grateful to have my Spring Break the next week.
Been thinking about you and how you are holding up. Praying for sweet peace and ministering angels to continue to be with you and with Jon's family.
Carol Polston says
I saw something on Monday about praying for his family & my heart dropped. I am so sorry. I've been thinking about you and his family and have been prating for all of you. Carol
I am on my way to Easter service and thinking about you. I wondered, I wonder what Jon taught you. What wisdom did he impart to you? And isn't it something that God chose YOU to be his teacher! Out of all the teachers in the world! That is incredibly special, especially since I know you will carry him with you forever. The sadness doesn't ever go away, it just becomes different. Embrace this grieving process that God is taking you through. 1 Peter 2:5
Those are great photos! It brings tears to my eyes thinking about you and his family and your sense of loss. I've never lost a student or child I knew well (knock on wood) so I can only imagine how you must feel. It's wonderful that you can carry such special memories of him with you, though. Take care,
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Carolyn Kisloski says
I have been thinking of you, and will be as you head back to school this week. Please know how many prayers are coming your way, and to all of Jon's family and friends. The superhero pictures are my absolute favorites. <3
There is strength within the sorrow
There is beauty in our tears
And You meet us in our mourning
With a love that casts out fear
You are working in our waiting
You're sanctifying us
When beyond our understanding
You're teaching us to trust
Your plans are still to prosper
You have not forgotten us
You're with us in the fire and the flood
You're faithful forever
Perfect in love
You are sovereign over us
Michael W Smith
You are so sweet!! He was lucky to have you in his life!!! 🙂