I have no idea how to move on from my last post. I’m not sure I’m ready to move on just yet. So this will be a “checking in” post and I will skip Five for Friday or Fraturday because it doesn’t feel right yet.
I can’t thank you enough for all of the emails, messages, and comments about Jon. Thank you for praying for his family, his friends, our school, and me.
I last saw Jon on Thursday at our Open House. He came by to visit me and when I asked him how he was, he gave me a thumbs up. After going through my room and my teammie’s room, he looked tired so I asked him if he was ready to go. He shook his head no. When I asked him if he was having fun, he nodded yes.
I told him I’d see him on Tuesday like we’d planned. We’ll finish Junie B., okay? And I’m bringing some Pete the Cat books like you asked. I’ve already pulled them.
See you Tuesday, I said.
My heart is broken.
This has been a difficult week. I needed your prayers and I have felt them. I am amazed at God’s timing, although I know I shouldn’t be. We are on spring break which means all of Jon’s friends were home with their families and not at school when they heard the news. That was a huge blessing.
While I might have needed school to stay busy, it has been nice to just be quiet, to pray, to wander aimlessly through my day. To answer emails, stay in touch with Jon’s family, and keep in contact with my school friends. I haven’t had a lot of energy so I’ve just stayed close to home.
I’ve talked to my mom and twin every day . . . the two of them and Steve have been so supportive and helpful.
I am just so sad. But mostly, I am concerned for Jon’s parents, sisters, and family – I pray almost continuously that God comforts them and gives them strength.
Thank you for all that you’ve done — for donating to Jon’s fundraiser, for writing birthday cards, for being on this journey with me. I cannot thank you enough.
As we head into Easter weekend, I am comforted because I know Jesus lives. And this helps me get through the day. Knowing that Jon Jon is in Heaven – running, playing baseball, and experiencing pure joy in a perfect body.