You might remember that back in March when all of this first happened, and our schools went online, and we were all told to self quarantine and shelter in place that I spoke on Instagram (and maybe even here on my blog) that I was completely and totally against primary students using digital resources because BY GOLLY, THEY NEED TO PICK UP A PENCIL AND USE IT.
And while I was at it, I said they needed to work on their fine motor skills, and their printing, and anything else that sounded good, and relevant, and made me feel better, and I also said, and I quote:
“I’m not going to do it.“
I think I may have also said something along the lines of and I won’t be creating anything digital either, I’m against it, I’m a first grade teacher, and this is ridiculous, I don’t care.
Oh, you guys.
Oh, how I wish I could go back in time and tape my mouth shut.
What was I even thinking?
I think I was pretty darn sure we were all going to be returning to the classroom in three weeks’ time. I was pretty sure this wouldn’t last. I was pretty sure I could pick up right where I left off in April and my kids wouldn’t have missed a beat.
You know. I’m all knowing and psychic and aren’t I just the best most positive and optimistic person you’ve ever met?
AY YI YI.
Who am I? I’ll tell you who I am.
I am ridiculous.
If only I had known!! If only I had known on March 13th that I needed to send home paper and pencils and crayons with my students, and packets, and BOOKS! ACTUAL BOOKS! I would have sent home tons of books with my students, but I didn’t know.
I didn’t know!
So then it dragged on. I thought . . . well this is okay, I’ll just make sure what we use in the classroom is available online and the parents can print it, and it will all be okay.
But it wasn’t okay for ALL of my families, it wasn’t equitable, some of my families didn’t have printers, enough ink, or even the school supplies necessary for cutting, gluing, coloring, writing, etc.
Then I thought . . . no big deal! I’ll deliver packets and supplies!
But nope. We weren’t allowed. We were NOT allowed. We weren’t even allowed to do one of those cool Teacher Car Parades. No. I live in Southern California and we were told to STAY AT HOME so our superintendent told us to STAY AT HOME.
Do you know where this is headed?
How did I not know where this was headed?
Seriously? How could I have been so stubborn and stupid?
Our families without devices were given one device. And that’s it. No printer. No school supplies. Nothing else. Just a Chromebook.
This meant that I had to adjust my thinking EXTREMELY QUICKLY and look for digital resources that were meaningful, purposeful, and engaging.
And then I decided to start making some digital resources of my own.
Who am I?
I am sheepish, and I am foolish, and I am trying to keep up with the times even though I am absolutely against it AND JUST WANT TO GET BACK IN THE REAL CLASSROOM WITH REAL LIVE STUDENTS AND CARPET TIME.
I want to share books and supplies, and hugs, and pats on the shoulders, and laughter, and I want us all gathering around the map or the globe to look up something, and I want us all gathered together looking out the window at a thunderstorm . . . I just want that feeling of family and community in the classroom.
I still HAVE NO CLUE what August is going to look like. NOT. A. CLUE.
I’ve been told:
We will begin online
We will begin in the classroom
We will begin online and then transition to the classroom
If we are in the classroom, be ready to go back to online in a moment’s notice several times throughout the year . . .
It hurts my head!
I just want to be prepared for whatever happens so that I am not shocked or acting ridiculous again or wishing I could start over.
I would also love a clear, solid plan for August but at this point, I think I’m dreaming. HA!
Anyways, with all of that being said, I’m most likely going to spend the summer fine tuning Google Classroom, but also prepping for school and real live human children in a real life classroom setting (which is my FIRST CHOICE, just FYI).
And, to that end, I’m going to continue to create resources for my kids . . . but I’m going to create a mix of printables and Digital Resources so that I’m covered on all fronts.
I just felt the need to put this out there in case someone thinks WAIT A MINUTE. YOU SAID YOU WEREN’T ON THE DIGITAL BANDWAGON, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
I’m just trying to be realistic and prepared for any scenario.
I’ll be back to share some digital resources (with printable options) that I’ve created recently . . . but, in the meantime, do YOU know what you’re preparing for? Are you going back? Staying remote? Do you even know?
I am praying for all of us! I pray daily that God prepares me mentally, emotionally, and physically for school in August, however it looks! That I’ll be flexible (this is hard for me) and accepting (also hard for me) of whatever it is without complaint (extremely hard for me). It’s not what happens to me, it’s how I handle it so that’s what I’m trying to do.
In the meantime, go enjoy a summer day while I sit inside and rock back and forth in a corner.
While working on Google Classroom, and real life classroom prep, and creating digital resources, I’ll be eating and reading and lounging, and spending time with Murphie and Steve, and family.
I think we all know by now that I’m a huge nerd and creating and playing with my computer is actually a hobby so no one feel sorry for me and wonder what’s wrong with me.
I do that enough for all of us.